you got to get out ,,you can't stand to see me shaking

so i went back to the pills tonight
its been a couple months since ive taken them
but it only feels like seeing an old friend
they went down so easy; no struggles here
i took them
right after i argued with Steven

i don't even know what happened
he was just talking about how every girl breaks his heart
i told him i would never break his heart
and he automatically assumes i want more than friendship

no i just mean that i want to be there for you
when every other girl breaks your heart
i'll be there for you
i'll always be that friend that sticks by you

now i dont think he even wants that
i was so angry none of what i said made any sense
im just so confused right now

i dont know why im so sorry
but i just am
i just want to talk to steven without him
being angry at me for what happened tonight
im sorry im doing this again
but where else do i turn to?