im apoligizing for something im not sure i did

im going to make my bed under the stars tonight
im going to let all the light fill me up
let the crackling fire be my melody

i want to lay here forever
lay here and forget everything

let darkness creep upon me once again
because thats the only place that feels like home

its so easy to give up
i know thats what you want
you want me to forget about how far ive come
you want me to go back to the old me
the one you can control because im too weak for anything else

i dont think i can go back there again
no matter how bad i want to
how easy it would be to lay in your arms again
how easy to let you do everything for me
to make me feel good again

but i dont think i can go back there again