its true that love was all i ever wanted

Seems the only one who doesn't see your beauty
is the face in the mirror looking back at you
you walk around here thinking your not pretty
but that's not true, cause I know you...


hold on, baby you're losing it
the waters high, your jumping into it
and letting go and no one knows
that you cry, but you don't tell anyone
that you might not be the golden one
and your tied together with a smile
but your coming undone

I guess it's true that love was all you wanted
cause you've given it away like it's extra change
hoping it will end up in his pocket
but he leaves you out like a penny in the rain

oh, cause it's not his price to pay
not his price to pay...

hold on, baby you're losing it
the waters high, your jumping into it
and letting go and no one knows
that you cry, but you don't tell anyone
that you might not be the golden one
and your tied together with a smile
but your coming undone

you're tied together with a smile
but you're coming undone...oh woah
goodbye, baby
with a smile, baby, baby.
Oh.

hold on, baby you're losing it
the waters high, your jumping into it
and letting go and no one knows
that you cry, but you don't tell anyone
that you might not be the golden one
and your tied together with a smile
but your coming undone

tied together with a smile-taylor swift(possible my favorite artist ever)

im slowdancing on the inside

I saw Rachel last night and a little bit today
And I'm super happy around her
But now I won't be talking to her for two weeks
Since she's going to Camp
But then we get to spend like 4 days straight
with each other =) (if this smile could be bigger it would)
I was hoping she would be able to come over for a week this summer
but work has me pretty well tied up

Steven is back in CC
I'm hoping to see him soon
but he's not on msn
so i can't really make plans
if he reads this he can call me or whatever

kinda stealing this from beth but she loves me so it doesn't matter


music moment---
Bethany Joy Lenz-Halo

is anybody listening

he took my heart and i think he took my soul

why is it so easy for you to hurt me?

when i try so hard to make you happy

why is it so easy for you to give up?

when all i want is to keep trying

why is it so easy for you to say goodbye?

when i struggle with even thinking about saying goodbye

why is it that you cant talk to me anymore?

when the only thing that puts me at peace is talking to you

i just miss you

i'll find a way to you even if it kills me

i dont know why people feel they have to lie to me

just tell me the truth

it feels better than finding out from someone else

how you decieved me

like i give a shit who you talk to or hang out with

just dont lie to me

dancing where the stars go blue

i had a blog written

but it was just another

problem i have

and hey who really

wants to hear all those

anyone ive ever met

just considers it another chore

to listen to me

sorry i cant be the one to take on all your problems

im just not strong enough

they all say youve made it this far

only a little farther to go

the truth is ive lied about all the progress ive made

i really dont think ive gotten anywhere

Ben was here last night

we dident get to talk much

but he's changed a lot

everyone is changing

even me

im not the same girl i used to be

ive never been that girl

i just know how to put on a show

lets see if anyone can figure out the real me

.....game on

no one else will have me like you do

Lately I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everyone has a private world
Where they can be alone
Are you calling me, are you trying to get through
Are you reaching out for me, and I'm reaching out for you

I'm just so fuckin' depressed
I just can seem to get out this slump
If I could just get over this hump
But I need something to pull me out this dump
I took my bruises, took my lumps
Fell down and I got right back up
But I need that spark to get psyched back up
In order for me to pick that mic back up
I don't know how I pry away
And I ended up in this position I'm in
I starting to feel distant again
So I decided just to pick this pen
Up and tried to make an attempt to vent
But I just can't admit
Or come to grips, with the fact that
I may be done with rap
I need a new outlet
I know some shits so hard to swallow
And I just can't sit back and wallow
In my own sorrow
But I know one fact
I'll be one tough act to follow
One tough act to follow
Copy
One tough act to follow
Here today, gone tomorrow
But you have to walk a thousand miles

Walk my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
All be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what I'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other's mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other's eyes

But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sOoOoo
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you

I think I'm starting to lose my sense of humor
Everything is so tense and gloom
I almost feel like I gotta check the temperature in the room
Just as soon as I walk in
It's like all eyes on me
So I try to avoid any eye contact
Cause if I do that then it opens a door to conversation
Like I want that...
I'm not looking for extra attention
I just want to be just like you
Blend in with the rest of the room
Maybe just point me to the closest restroom
I don't need fucking man servin'
Tryin to follow me around, and wipe my ass
Laugh at every single joke I crack
And half of them ain't even funny like that
Ahh Marshall, you're so funny man, you should be a comedian, god damn
Unfortunately I am, but I just hide behind the tears of a clown
So why don't you all sit down
Listen to the tale I'm about to tell
Hell, we don't have to trade our shoes
And you don't have to walk no thousand miles


Walk my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
All be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what I'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other's mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other's eyes

But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sOoOoo
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sOoOoo

Nobody asked for life to deal us
With these bullshit hands with doubt
We have to take these cards ourselves
And flip them, don't expect no help
Now I could have either just
Sat on my ass and pissed and moaned
But take this situation in which I'm placed in
And get up and get my own
I was never the type of kid
To wait but I know to unpack his bags
Never sat on the porch and hoped and prayed
For a dad to show up who never did
I just wanted to fit in
Every single place
Every school I went
I dreamed of being that cool kid
Even if it meant acting stupid
Aunt Edna always told me
Keep making that face till it gets stuck like that
Meanwhile I'm just standing there
Holding my tongue up trying to talk like this
Till I stuck my tungue on the frozen stop sign poll at 8 years old
I learned my lesson and cause I wasn't tryin to impress my friends no more
But I already told you my whole life story
Not just based on my description
Cause where you see it from where you're sitting
Is probably 110% different
I guess we would have to walk a mile
In each other's shoes, at least
What size you where?
I wear tens
Let's see if you can fit your feet

Walk my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
All be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what I'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other's mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other's eyes

But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sOoOoo
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sOoOoo

Lately I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everyone has a private world
Where they can be alone... sOoOoo
Are you calling me, are you trying to get through OoOo
Are you reaching out for me, and I'm reaching out for you sOoOoo Oo Oo

Yea... To my babies. Stay strong. Daddy will be soon
And to the rest of the world, god gave you the shoes
That fit you, so put em on and wear em
And be yourself man, be proud of who you are
Even if it sounds corny,
Don't ever let no one tell you, you ain't beautiful


beautiful-eminem

i dont care if its for kids im going anyway

if something has fun in its name it obviously has to be fun DUH!

funnel cake

fun town

hmm i guess there are no more

-Rachel

i really do love her

boats and ho's!!! say what?

every now and again

i think to myself

"i can't believe i hugged that guy"




CRISPY CHRIS!!!!

......he was just that creepy

im apoligizing for something im not sure i did

im going to make my bed under the stars tonight
im going to let all the light fill me up
let the crackling fire be my melody

i want to lay here forever
lay here and forget everything

let darkness creep upon me once again
because thats the only place that feels like home

its so easy to give up
i know thats what you want
you want me to forget about how far ive come
you want me to go back to the old me
the one you can control because im too weak for anything else

i dont think i can go back there again
no matter how bad i want to
how easy it would be to lay in your arms again
how easy to let you do everything for me
to make me feel good again

but i dont think i can go back there again

please come back home to me

I drift away to a place
Another kind of life
Take away the pain
I create my paradise

Everything I've held
Has hit the wall
What used to be yours
Isn't yours at all

Falling apart, and all that I'm asking
Is a crime, am I overreacting

Oh, he's under my skin
Just give me something to get rid of him
I've got a reason now to bury this alive
Another little white lie

What you had didn't fit
Among the pretty things
But never fear, never fear
I now know where you've been

Braids have been un-tied
Ribbons fall away
Leave the consequence
But my tears you'll taste

Falling apart and all that I question
Is this a dream or is this my lesson

Oh, he's under my skin
Just give me something to get rid of him
I've got a reason now to bury this alive
Another little white lie

I don't believe I'll be alright
I don't believe I'll be ok
I don't believe how you throw me away
I do believe you didn't try
I do blame you for every lie
When I look in your eyes, I don't see mine

Oh, he's under my skin
Just give me something to get rid of him
I've got a reason now to bury this alive
Another little white lie

Oh my permission to sin
You might have started my reckoning
I've got a reason now to bury him alive
Another little white lie

don't let me go, please don't let go

i shut the door
hide my face
and cry
they're not allowed to see my tears
no one is allowed to see my tears
because once i show them
they know that i am weak
they know that i can't even handle
a simple day
i can't handle anything
everyday i come home
lay in my bed
curl up and cry

im sick of self pity
its just not me
i always promised myself i would never
be the depressing one
no matter how bad it hurt i would
paint the smile on

i really can't do this anymore
everyday is a stuggle
and i dont have anyone left
oh yes they say they're still here
but they dont want to be
and its funny how i never see them or talk to them

im alone again
i think it might be better this way

-----you promised you would never
hurt me,,,guess what
you were wrong-----