I will survive

How are you gonna face tomorrow
when you haven't lived today?
Why do you keep pushing stuff off;
it will all just slip away
Everyday you have to keep on fighting
because this world it doesn't rest
Everyday you have to keep on trying
so people see you at your best.
This world it throws some mighty punches.
It will drop you to your knees.
Its not the fall that defines your strength
its the fact that you rise again
Hit upon hit you're still going strong.
Even though they're raining terror upon you
You still go on
I wanna see you fight through this
Cause I fought too

You think you're strong cause you're willing to die
The real strength comes when you're fighting to stay alive.

My little Ava
a ten week old kitten
starving to death
and believed to be thrown out of a car
how can people be such monsters

--I will lift you up
because you are too weak to stand
I will hold you close
I will show you the way
because your blind eyes keep you still.
I will love you until the end of time
because your strength overwhelms me.
Let us be one together now,
forever and always,

i'm so lost

someone please save me
cause i'm so lost
someone please care
because this pain has much too high a cost

is anyone there?
i see no hands raise
does anyone even care?
all i get are blank stares

do i have to scream at the top of my lungs?
or could i just disappear?

i try so hard again and again
i see no reward from the struggles i live
the pain is wearing on my face and all you will see is my frown
i try to hide the fear but it's breaking me down

could someone please save me?
i'm starting to drown

One Tree Hill=Love

I have to believe in something right now.
Because without hope.
I won't be able to breath...

Footprints I've left behind

Crash
My door slamming against every mess I've made
Crash
The wave upon the beach washing away the footprints I've left behind
Crash
Everything hitting the floor because I realize it's finally over
Crash
I land on the floor because I have nothing left
Crash
Two cars are colliding because I just gave up
Crash
His words attacking my brain
Crash
My tears hitting the pillow
Crash
down on me

did you know?
i pretty much hate all men

except for the famous ones and the
illegal ones
wow that sounds bad
but he's only 26
it isn't that bad
is it?

*Picture of Drake
no not illegal
but a face that hot should be illegal ;)*

Unfold me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me



-Amazing song and picture-

goodbye has never felt so good

i've done it
i said goodbye to Steven for good
i blocked and deleted him from msn
i deleted him from facebook
and i will never hear from him again
i'm not even crying
should i be?
i know i'll probably think about him still
but now i don't have to be in direct contact with him
and you know what he said
"Why?"
Really?
Like really?
After everything that's happened you still
don't know why, i've just closed a big chapter of my
life, i actually think i finished a book there
time to start writing away on the sequel

i find it amazing
how in a few short moments
everything you thought, felt, loved
about a person can change

how one sentence can intensify absolutely everything
how simple words can spin your whole world around
and suddenly everything else disappears and you're
left to respond

Her eyes told me the greatest story

Story: I really liked my eyes that day and decided to take a gazillion pictures and thought this was the best picture, I can't really figure out my emotion but I'm leaning towards hope. Because today I feel very hopeful. This is all.

there are monsters knocking at my door

I wrote this um October-ish last year, so ya there are a few parts i don't like but overall I thought it was pretty cool. enjoy :)


I promise I won't cry tonight daddy
You won't have to wipe away the shame strolling down my face
You won't hear the pill bottle shaking tonight daddy
You won't have to hug me until I crumble beneath your strong arms
while you try to hold the both of us together.
You won't tire your tongue telling me how much you love me and how it will be ok.
You won't have to guard my door to make sure the monsters stay away tonight daddy.
but tomorrow they'll all attack again and tomorrow I'll need you daddy.

i love him,
i know how bad it is
but it shouldn't feel this right

everyone deserves a second chance


right?

Love
is friendship on
Fire

I have no life but this,
To lead it her;
Nor any death, but lest
Dispelled from there;

Nor tie to earths to come,
Nor action new,
Except through this extent,
The realm of you.

-Emily Dickinson