you make me smile

Day 22
I like to push my limits.
I want to see just how far
I can take something.

---Music Moment---
Uncle Kracker-Smile

keep your hand on the wheel and one on my thigh

Day 21
i can be really superficial
i dont mean to be
but i am

---Music Moment---
Steve Dunston-Slow Road

Day 20

When I get bored I chew on stuff,
like whatever I have in my hand.
Usually plastic wrappers or pens.

---Music Moment---
Taylor Swift-Cold as you { I listen to it every single morning :) }

Day 19

I used to swear all the time,
'twas bad

you told me to call, you said you'd be there

Day 17
I have severe anxiety;
about pretty much everything.
This is why I can't have silence.
It gives me quiet to think.
Which leads to disaster.
Which I have told a few of you about.
Maybe I'll extrapolate later ,,,maybe

Day 18
I never have worn a turtleneck
and I never will.
I hates them ;)


---Music Moment---
Taylor Swift-Cold as You

I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did

So usually Rachel and I talk about stuff that happens during the day, funny things we've seen, or something weird that has happened. But the other night we talked about university, careers, and familys. So basically we talked about everything that we hope to attain in the future. She has changed what she wants to pursue, this got me thinking . Do I have what it takes to become a veterinarian? Is that what I really want out of life? Would I be happier doing something else?
For 5 years all I've wanted to become is a vet, to take care of animals. But now I'm second guessing myself, I don't know if I would be alright to be in control of a living creature, to have all that control in my hands. Then I think well what if I don't even get accepted at UPEI , I know I worry way to much; but this is my life. There are no second chances, every choice you make has a consequence. I don't want to waste my life away. I want to make every moment count, I've spent so much time holding back, afraid of what others would think of me. When really all that mattered is what I know to be true. That the real me needs to shine through no matter the situation. Grade 12 is all about deciding what you want to do after high school, I'm going to trust myself to make the right decision. Rachel has decided to become a teacher(maybe at STU), teaching has always been my back-up plan. The bonus is now Rachel wants to teach as well, so I think I will apply to more than UPEI and hope for the best. During our conversation on life I realized how alike Rachel and I are, it's strange how we want the same things out of life, oh and we've decided that when we have kids we will act as aunts instead of cousins to each others kids. Right now we are trying to figure out where we want to live. Probably something that you shoulden't try and predetermine but it's always nice to have a best friend you want to plan your life with. Well this is getting to be probably my longest blog ever. If you've taken the time to read my rant THANK YOU it means a lot to have people who care about what you say even if it is rant-ish.

---Music Moment---
Keri Hilson ft. Kanye West & Neyo-Knock you down

you thought I would self destruct without you but I'm still here

Day 15
I can only nap when I'm sick.

Day 16
I can't fall asleep with my
bedroom door open.

---Music Moment---
Destinys Child-Survivor