goodbye has never felt so good

i've done it
i said goodbye to Steven for good
i blocked and deleted him from msn
i deleted him from facebook
and i will never hear from him again
i'm not even crying
should i be?
i know i'll probably think about him still
but now i don't have to be in direct contact with him
and you know what he said
"Why?"
Really?
Like really?
After everything that's happened you still
don't know why, i've just closed a big chapter of my
life, i actually think i finished a book there
time to start writing away on the sequel

i find it amazing
how in a few short moments
everything you thought, felt, loved
about a person can change

how one sentence can intensify absolutely everything
how simple words can spin your whole world around
and suddenly everything else disappears and you're
left to respond

Her eyes told me the greatest story

Story: I really liked my eyes that day and decided to take a gazillion pictures and thought this was the best picture, I can't really figure out my emotion but I'm leaning towards hope. Because today I feel very hopeful. This is all.

there are monsters knocking at my door

I wrote this um October-ish last year, so ya there are a few parts i don't like but overall I thought it was pretty cool. enjoy :)


I promise I won't cry tonight daddy
You won't have to wipe away the shame strolling down my face
You won't hear the pill bottle shaking tonight daddy
You won't have to hug me until I crumble beneath your strong arms
while you try to hold the both of us together.
You won't tire your tongue telling me how much you love me and how it will be ok.
You won't have to guard my door to make sure the monsters stay away tonight daddy.
but tomorrow they'll all attack again and tomorrow I'll need you daddy.

i love him,
i know how bad it is
but it shouldn't feel this right

everyone deserves a second chance


right?

Love
is friendship on
Fire